I've always wanted to try composing a light, jazz-like song. :D

I call it jump! but careful don't hit the ceiling

Media : Guitar Pro 4 ; Audacity

Have any one every used FL Studio? is it good? I can only find the demo version... I don't know if it's worth downloading or not...?

lately I'm always feeling so sleepy.. what is wrong with me.

you know that feeling when you read a friend's journal.. and this friend seems to be at the merge of breaking down or all alone.

You want to comment and tell him/her that "It's okay! Don't feel sad over this kind of thing." ... but wait! He/she has disabled comments ARGH

People come and people go. Even the friendship of the best of friends deteriorate with time and distance. Then there's new friends, and you kind of think 'ahh it's the same isn't it? After a few years we'll each move our separate ways and they'll probably forget all about me.'

To make new friends or not to make new friends?

Wouldn't it be better if we kept to ourselves and didn't have any friends? Then we wouldn't miss our old friends and feel sad and lonely about it.

I used to be like that.

Then one day I came to know somebody, who asked that I stop dwelling in the past or imagined future.

Accept my present. Treasure whatever or whoever I have in this moment. Even if we don't meet again in the future, do not feel sad by thinking of the time we've spent together.

If you're wondering how I'm doing, stop. Just give me a call or text me. Whether I snap at you for disturbing me or ask you to call back later,

as human beings it always feels good to know that somebody is thinking of you.

Don't you think so too?

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comments are disabled because I am a dick AHAHAHAHAHA!! Anyways, I hope you're feeling better!

okay... so the truth is... I don't play a lot of games. Basically because I suck in them OTL

Tried to play DOTA but I couldn't figure out how to play it. Kept getting killed?! ahh.. I should look for cheats..

Lately I've been influenced by phzblue to play Devil Survivor.



It's not bad! Compared to most NDS Games that is... battle systems are ok.. though a bit confusing. Frankly I'd prefer more fast-paced like The World Ends With You. I found the battles too slow for my liking. But then again this is SPARTAN STRATEGY, so I guess it's ok.

I haven't played far enough to be able to write a proper review for it... however, for the time being I really dislike Yuzu... c'mon ATLUS! what's with annoying female protagonists?!

At least Etna and Flonne from Disgaea were COOL.

(speaking of Disgaea.. I'm wondering if I should buy volume 2 and 3 of Disgaea manga... I have volume 1. The art is not by the original artist that designed the characters, but it's pretty decent and funny... the only problem is that it costs roughly RM50 a book at Borders Bookstore HMMMMMM.... )

As for Devil Survivor... I'm still stuck at the snowman part.. *sobs*

well, in case you haven't realised, RH or Pchaness is really a girl and DO enjoy pursing for beauty asldkfa;jsdlf SHUSH.

Unfortunately, because I have super sensitive skin that sunBURNS and breaks out in ache and rashes every so often, it is likely that nobody notices my XX-chromosomes since I never wear make-up and is always seen wearing oversized t-shirt and jeans. Like hell, even my mom mistakes me for her son sometimes.

My life... It is very pathetic and sad!

but now, I have discover a solution to hide those ugly blemishes without looking like a circus clown!!! One that costs rm54.90.. and thought it would be nice to share my findings with fellow friends who, like me, have vampire skin.

( bb creams )

Summary :

Mysterious Brand with Pink Packaging : sticky, horrible oil control; mixture between watery and thick; good coverage but not too natural due to the shinyness; Cherry-like smell.

Face Shop , Quick and Clean BB Cream : light mixture; not sticky, but doesn't work too well for those who suffer from oily skin; natural coverage; Only 1 shade available. Smells a little like...green tea? close to unscented.

Skin Food, Aloe Vera BB Cream : Thickest mixture of the 3; not sticky, lasts longer; good, natural coverage; 2 shades available; Scented, smells like aloe, fruits and nuts/almonds(?) but the smell goes away after application.

I am a new fan of BB Cream and Skin Food~ tempted to try the BB Cream from BTRC, which is highly recommended... but with the price at rm100-/+ I don't think I will any time soon...

I want to try Skin Food famous face masks too but I'm afraid I'll get allergic reactions from it ahahahahahaha *DESPAIR

[EDIT] please take note that starting from this entry, all other art entries on this journal will be 'friends-lock'. To view further tutorials if you do not have an livejournal account, you may do so at my art blog http://pchaness.dreamwidth.org/ . Sorry for the inconvenience!



( step-by-step )

I think I'll be making Dreamwidth my artblog from now on. I need an online portfolio badly... ;o; Will post a link to my dreamwidth blog once I get the layout sorted out and everything.

I'll also try to post more decent tutorials in the future!

first part of The Valley.



I made it just in time before the deadline! yes!! :D

THANKYOU KS FOR HELPING ME! T___T Without you, I would never have been able to finish it.

I will belanja you starbucks or kimgary or... come to think of it I have no idea what you like to eat... Starbucks and Kimgary are my favourite things... I'd make a lovely lunchbox for you but my cooking is so bad, it'll be like poison... or maybe I could just help you with your own oneshot/school assignments.

I'm so anxious... Even though I'm too lazy to look forward to working on second part... I hope everything works out! ><

*

Some stuff came up so I'll be away until monday. I'll write about my awesome life at a school for mentally challenged students when I get back.

stolen from kira_neko

( malay meme )

ALEVEL EXAMS ARE OVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER

I have officially graduated from DISTARDED GAYSTAMFORD YES!!

( stuff I bought )

Also... my parents are kicking me out of the house to get a part-time job. THIS IS TERRIBLE.

Most of the time I dunno what kind of tones to use for what kind of things T______T;;;

Will clean up and retone this after exams.


This Journal will be friends-lock after 20th June.

Work related:
1.) NxC(???) - deadline 20th June
2.) Art Commission (OMG I've been procrastinating on this for 3 months already and my client has already paid T___T I'M SO SORRYYYYY I'll make it super high quality)
3.) Echoes
4.) Horror speedpaint game collab with star_keziah(?)

(d-did I miss out anything else?)



mangas to read:
1.) Billy Bat
2.) Manhole
??care to suggest any mangas? I prefer mystery/action like full metal alchemist and 20th century boys; seinen/mature. Shounen or Shoujo is okay too.
Comedies such as OnePiece is gold~~~ :D

Music:
1.) compose some songs
2.) learn to sing
3.) piano
4.) learn violin
5.) get a guitar
6.) practise playing the drums

To Watch:
??care to suggest any movies?/anime?/dramas?

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HENCE NOW I WILL STUDY MY ASS OFF SO I CAN ENJOY AFTER MY EXAMS *___*

( stuff that happened )

I really should continue studying now. My Maths! It can't count to save me!!



even Kamina is dumbfounded by the level of Alevels puremaths of level 999999999+infinity. It is the ultimate boss. Nothing can drill into it.

( lyrics )

I am amused at the way the singer sings "Wanna do, I wanna do"

EXAMS ARE JUST A WEEK AWAY!!!!!!!! WTF AM I DOING?!?!??!?!?!?!??

Didn't study at all this weekend.

instead, I spent my entire saturday on

WTH

But I am glad with how it came out. After my alevels I will try to illustrate that art-book I've always thought of making.

anyways, I went to a study agent some time last week and did a fees calculation on studying in Australia, New Zealand and UK. Even with Nursing (cheaper course), I couldn't scrap enough for accommodation and living fees. WRYYYYYYYYYYYY

though...I got band 8 for my IELTS test and AAB for my alevels forecast results! :D I hope I'd be able to maintain those grades.

It would be cool if I could get a JPA scholarship for Universitas Padjajaran (Unpad) Bandung, Indonesia... of course, Australia, New Zealand, UK or elsewhere would be a better choice to study uni in... but my parents aren't that well off, so Indonesia is all I can manage if I get a bank loan(?) T_T;

AIMST (local) doesn't seem too bad either. I like IMU but it's a little too expensive. Monash is waaaaaaaaaaay out of the question.

I really dislike financial problems. ;m;

I don't know if I should apply for Bachelor in Nursing at the University of South Australia... it seems like a nice place, tuition fees are affordable... not sure about the living costs but I think it should be cheaper than Sydney?

My a-levels forecast results are A for Puremaths, A for Biology and... E for Chemistry (LOL?!)
I can't get in Medicine which requires a minimum of ABB to get in.

Actually I don't even think I want to be a doctor... I just want to go overseas, work here, migrate there, work, go elsewhere...

I'd like to see the world~ so if people talk about a particular place, I could say "oh, I've been there! :D "

My parents keep saying "You can work as a Dentist locally, make lots of money, and take November and December off!" but bleaaaaaaaaaaaarghhh... I dunno T__T;

I hear that in Australia you can get a pr/job easily if you're a nurse? and that you only have to work 2 weeks a month? Is that true? @__@;

Any Aussies studying at Uni SA out there? or if you're a nurse/nursing student and reading this, what is your job/course like?

Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

( meme )

( LJ flist, meet Griffin )

it is a carnivorous sea serpent that eats everything from fishes to fishermen and little children.

It's made of eraser LOL. I'm serious... The clay I use is a special type that turns to eraser once it hardens... Even its inside consists of left over erasers that I got from my brother's pencil box.

I don't really like this type of clay though... it's too soft, sticky and difficult to work with T__T;

One day after my alevels I will buy a huge packet of polymer clay make an army of dangerous monsters... then I'll give it to all my friends :D